A Letter from My Past

My dear Tari,

What’s up? How was your day? I always wish you and your family are fine. Don’t forget to be thankful for what you have now, Tar, include your health. I want to share my feeling now.

I will face my senior year this year. Yeah, I will graduate from this school soon. But, before that, I have to face this next one year. A year that will be full of struggle, sacrifice, happiness, and also sadness if I remember that I will split from my friends faster. The biggest fear for me now is, I can’t through this year well, so I can not achieve my dreams after graduating from this senior high school. I’m afraid I can’t manage my time well for studying, so I can’t show a good ‘performance’ in school. I’m afraid I will be more sensitive and moody, so I probably can damage my relationship with my friends and my juniors. This sensitive feelings may comes because of too many demands for 12 graders later. I know it by noticing my seniors who will be graduated soon from this school. I have not ready for a lot of change that I will face in 12^th grade later, including my time for having fun that will be decreased after this.

But, I believe that there is no gain without pain. I have to through this year with full of spirit so all of my fears will go away. I am sure I can do it. All I need are only a bunch of spirit from myself, my parents, my friends, struggle, hard work, sacrifice, and God’s blessing by praying to Him every time. After all these pains, I am sure I will gain what I deserved. I have to believe in my dreams. I want to be a student of Bandung Insitute of Technology, Faculty of Industrial Technology, Engineering Management major. Yeah, I know that is not easy. That is why I will not achieve that dream without any struggle. I hope when you read this letter for the next time, you have achieved your dreams and do not afraid with the obstacles. I always hope you will be what you want to be. But always remember that Allah will give you the best as long as you always keep yourself closer to Him. Good luck! Everyone is praying for you!

With love,

Tari, your twin <3

Through the 2012.

Time runs faster than I expected. It feels like I just celebrated 2012 new year yesterday. But, it has been 2013 right now! Happy new year! :D

ps: Alhamdulillah the doomsday has not come on 20-12-12 last year ;p

2012 was a great year. There were a lot of good and bad memories created last year. A lot of love, a lot of tears, and a lot of happiness. Being 15 years old last year means a lot to me. It means I'm growing up, I have to be more mature than before. That was also my first 'full year' in Senior High School, a thing that sometimes I do not realize.

Last year, a thing has changed. I became XI grader student right now! There were some chances that was waiting for me. One of them was being a member of an organization in my school. One of my superb experience started from here. I got a lot of experience by being committee of my school's anniversary. I worked with another 20 fabulous students. Keep struggling to hold this event, although we only had one month to prepare. Anger, confusion, fear, and togetherness to hold this event were not meaningless when at that time, the event was successful! Our sacrifice paid off. Now I realize that a terrific result can be gotten with a very big effort, too. The most important thing is, we – those 20 students and me- became more solid because of this event.

The other my great experience last year was about an event with the future leaders, 3rd generation of Sampoerna Academy Malang. Guess what? Yeah, Solo Camp! A very great activity designed perfectly by Putera Sampoerna Foundation for us. We were so blessed to have this kind of experience. For three days, we lived on a training barrack of TNI AD. With its field, ramp, limited water, limited food, and some of armies who trained us. I through those three days with my 149 superb friends. Yeah, with all of my friends in 3rd batch of SA Malang, the greatest family ever! In Solo Camp, we were trained to survive, no matter the condition. Whether there was no water to take a bath, no enough lighting, or no hygienic food. From those three days super camp, I got some things to be learned.

First. We live in dormitory. Everything will always be prepared well for us. Be grateful. Don't muff it, or you will realize how lucky you are when you have to prepared it by yourself later.

Second. Friends are friends. Friends will always be there to help you because you can't do anything by yourself alone. Don't be selfish. Help each other. Or you will lament it when you have to do all alone, no one help you, and all you get will be only a failure.

Third.  Be good to the earth. When I was on barrack, I can see the mountain, jungle, and the scenery of the hills clearly. It was very beautiful. God has provide us this wonderful earth to be kept, not to be  destroyed. Never throw your trash haphazard, pluck and chop the plant, or you will mourn later.

Yeah, those are some of my great experience this year. It's only the smallest part of my life journey on 2012. Hope 2013 will be better!